I didn't want to be a lesbian writer, but this changed my mind

You may or may not have noticed (as I am aware that no one reads this blog, so I'll go with 'may not') that there's been a lack of content on here recently. Well, that's because of some very confusing thoughts I've had about myself and my orientation...

It started a few weeks ago, maybe a month (how long have I been inactive?), when I started feeling like my identity was overshadowing the rest of me. What I mean is that I had a huge sign saying "lesbian" and nothing else. I was worried that I was the "lesbian friend" or the "gay best friend", which in all honesty, I don't care or mind being, but I didn't want that to be the biggest or only interesting thing about me. For instance, I do write about a lot more than being gay, and having a blog that sort of reinforced this idea of being a raging homo was a bit contradictory to how I was feeling and, frankly, ironic.

I stopped wearing my pride band, which, although I haven't put it back on, was good for when I first came out as a strong identifier for me, I feel like I don't need it and that I'm more comfortable now in my sexuality than ever.

While at a recent journalism convention (I got to sneak into the News building in London), I realised that the LGBT community deserves more niche media at our fingertips. Something that focuses on ourselves and content for us. I realised I had this blog already and that this should be a queer women's place to be.

So, I've decided to come out with my real name, this blog is no longer going to be under a pen name but a more journalistic blog that I will write a range of different articles for.

Hi, I'm Zoe McGarrick, and that is kind of weird to say hiding behind a screen...

I'm hoping my family, that don't know I'm gay, won't see this before the big reveal, but wouldn't that be a funny way to come out? Add that to the creative list of ideas. Right next to the rainbow cake.

Obviously my target audience is queer women, but any straight folk out there? Stick around, you might learn something!

That's another thing! Content! I have been wondering if I should keep it a book blog, a queer one, obviously, but I've already written about Logan Paul, so that changes things... which is why, while making this a more journalist-y blog that will be very helpful to me in future, and as practise, I will be adding news, entertainment and other categories to it.

Just an update that I had my doubts, but I don't think we should break up. Stay a while and read, there'll be news, reviews, and other fun stuff to come.

It all starts with coming out to my family, which is all new in my coming out series.